Sunday, October 07, 2007

Can we bring yesterday back around?

Hey guys,

I've always made an effort to keep my personal life and this blog separate. Not that that's the only way to do a music blog, but it just sort of felt like it fit for me...so, although it's not as if I never mention me--probably the opposite, in fact; most of my posts seem to be about how I react to music--I've generally avoided real hard details about me and what's going on in my life. With that in mind, feel free to stop reading right now--what follows isn't the sort of stuff you probably come here for, and honestly, there's nothing wrong with that--we all have our own dramas to deal with. All you need to know is that it'll probably be some days, maybe a week or so, before my next post.






Near the beginning of this year, my mom was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. I don't know how much people know about it--I sure didn't know much--but it's pretty bad; survival rates are low. Still, she finished up chemo at the end of this past summer and, well, I know everyone says this, but honestly, she was the sort of person that everyone said "she'll be the one, she'll be the one to make it."

I'm in college, in case you hadn't guessed--have been for a few years now, and I went back in mid-August. Up until two weeks from last Friday, she was still at work, still teaching (she'd done a lot of things in her life, but for some years now, she's been a high school special ed teacher in a [inner] city school), and I don't think anyone--let alone me, hours away--knew anything was truly wrong again until about that day. I didn't find out anything until this Monday, when I got a call from my grandmother saying I should come home. Technically, I didn't know anything until this Friday, but when I asked for details about what was happening and only got "we'll talk when I see you" as a response, I think I could guess.

Anyhow, so I got home Friday, got to visit with her a few hours. My parents are both divorced and remarried (I split time with both equally)--well, I say "remarried," though I suppose technically the U.S. government wouldn't recognize what my mom had as a marriage (it's the family I've known for the longest time, that's for sure), but my step mom was honestly the best person in the world to take care of her.

I'm getting sidetracked: at 6:15 AM on Saturday morning, my mom passed away.

We had loads of people in and out of the house all yesterday, and we're not exactly a small family to begin with, but that's been a good thing. Anyway, the point of all this is that it'll be some days, maybe about a week, before I'm back--the service is on Wednesday, but it'll just be a little time. I do promise that I'm coming back...just in a little bit.

Kisses guys--see you soon.

36 comments:

AcerBen said...

Sorry to hear about your mother, Poster Girl. Best wishes to you and your family. You take as long as you need, we'll still be here waiting for you :)

kevin (ru) said...

So sorry about what's happened... :( Please don't worry about the blog - the family is the most important thing. We'll be patient for all the time you need. As I learned from my own dramas, having a wide musical taste and collection of music actually HELPS A LOT to recover. When you can choose the right song for the moment from thousands you know. Music heals, as well as time does.

EuropeCrazy said...

Really sorry to hear your sad news, thinking of you at this time. Take care, remember we're all here for you. X

RV said...

don't worry 'bout the blog
You just have to stay with your family and let time heal
Music can help but not now
I feel very sorry for you and don't know how I will manage to get through this when it happens to me (whenever it'll be).
Mothers are the more important persons we have in the world...
kisses
Take care

Omer said...

So sorry to hear about your mother.
Hope your family will know no more sorrow.

Kevin said...

We're very sorry for your loss, G.

Pierre said...

I'm obviously sorry to read this and I'm wishing you the best. Take care.

Mike said...

Words seem hollow at a time like this but I'm thinking of you. Send me an e-mail if you need a shoulder. Take care, Mike xxxxx

J said...

I'm so sorry. Take all the time you need, and I hope you will be okay.

Resa said...

I'm sorry to hear about your loss, Poster Girl. My condolences to you and your family. Remember all the happy memories because nobody can take that away from you. Take care.

-Resa

J'ason D'luv said...

I am so, so sorry. You're in my thoughts more than usual now.

Paul said...

oh my gosh ppg, i am so sorry to hear your sad news. I am definitely thinking of you at this difficult time and absolutely hoping that you are finding the strength to get through this. I am sending you the biggest virtual hug I can muster up for you and your loved ones :(

Nick said...

As the others already wrote, my deepest condolences for your loss. Know that you have a lot of people over here wishing you and your family the best. Hopefully that's a little bit of comfort during this tough time.

PopaDom said...

Words cannot express enough my deepest sympathies. Life has shown me there is no end after here and until you meet again please remember you now have a guardian angel on you r shoulder xx D

Alexander said...

I'm extremely sorry to hear about your mother. I cannot even imagine the sorrow you must feel. :(

*big hug*

Robpop said...

I repeat everything said by everyone above me PPG....and send you a

Huge hug!!!! A MASSSSSSSSSIVE HUG! Pop hugs, massive Swedish Schlager pop hugs with beautiful boys and fabulous singers singing songs originally by someone else in Norway and then released in South Africa by a boyband called Hi5!

Just, hugs. Hugs and my heart goes out to you. Big, gigantic hugs. Yeah, more hugs...

Len said...

PPG, take your time and do what you need to. So sorry about your loss and we will miss your sunshiny presence until you're back, but know that we're all there with our best wishes and support.

On an unrelated topic, your comments word verification is asking me to spell out something quite rude...

thnairg said...

My heart goes out to you, PG. I'm so glad though that you were able to spend one last time together; so meaningful and important. None of us will be upset about your absence from your blog, 'cause we know you'll be taking the time you need to start healing. Kevin's absolutely right ... music can always help when you need it most. Endless hugs, and take care.

-T

Michaell said...

I'll pray for your Mum's soul today - sending you all my good thoughts -

Rob said...

I echo what everyone else has said, my condolences go out to you and your family.

I pop in and out of your blog and you posted the English version of Fame's "Vindarna Vander Oss" for me a few months back - I think it's only me and you who like it ;) - but I don't leave as many comments as I should but I felt I had to leave one this time as my heart goes out to you and my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Best wishes,
Rob

POPtastic! (Jessica) said...

I am so sorry for your loss. As the others already wrote, my condolences go out to you and your family. Take care <3

Digital Technique said...

I know everyone else has said it but had to add some words to let you know I will be thinking of you and your family, take as long as you need PPG!

Loadsa hugs and love!

David (Digital Technique) xxxx

Moogaboo said...

Postergirl, I'm so sorry to hear of your mum's passing. Please take all the time you need and don't worry about us -- we'll always be here. My thoughts, prayers and condolences to you and your family.

KulPop said...

Sorry to hear the news of your mother's passing, my thoughts are with you.

KulPop

Anonymous said...

you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.. very sorry to hear about your mom. Do what you need for you right now. stay strong..

Adem IAR said...

Honey, I am so, so sorry to hear... my love and thoughts goes out to you and your family right now.

Take as much time as you need from the blog, we all understand.

*HUGS GALORE, SOME KISSES & MORE*

xoxoxox Mwah

Michaell said...

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Anonymous said...

im so sorry to hear about your loss. i also lost someone very dear to me to pancreatic cancer, and it was not an experience i would wish upon anyone. your blog is amazing, which leads me to believe that you are an amazing person as well. try and stay positive and focus on the good memories you have with your mom.

love and peace,

shawn

Claire said...

Take care mate, best wishes, we'll be here for when you come back, all our love and thoughts

Alyson

Bollinger Bolshevik said...

My thoughts are with you. x

Anonymous said...

My Prayers are with you and your family at this time. Please know that families are forever, and you will be reunited.

Jonathan said...

I'm so sorry, my thoughts are with you and your family. Take care - hugs and kisses. J

Anonymous said...

*HUG*

JW! said...

Very sorry sweetheart, I can only imagine what you're going through, and I send you all my very best wishes and thoughts.
Lots of love John xxxxxx

Brandon said...

i'm very sorry to hear about your loss. i've lost two dear relatives to cancer, and my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer last year...i know it can be extremely hard. she's in a better place now. hang in there<3

Dagny said...

i'm sorry for your loss PG, take care, and take your time